i'm afraid of water. i'm an aquarius and i'm afraid of water. big ponds. small oceans. even lakes. i'm also afraid of heights. but the thing i'm most afraid of is the future. mostly because i'm afraid of death. i just can't handle it. i've never been to a funeral in my life. and i've only been to a cemetary three times. the last time i went i was nine. i'm nineteen now.
i believe a god. i don't believe in religion. i don't believe in hell. but i wanna believe in heaven. but the whole idea of living forever in this otherworld sounds like hell to me. i just feel like i would get bored. and in this heaven will i get to meet everyone that has ever died. will i be drinking mamossas with MLK? slow grinding with Aaliyah? or just relaxing with my grandmoms? the whole concept really confuses me, but i wanna believe. i need to believe. i have to believe. but i don't think i can. i need a religion. i need something to believe in, but i feel the little religion i had is slipping out the window and today was the first day i said i don't belive in God out loud.
i said it twice.
i feel like i'm drowning...
14 June 2009
drowning
currently listening to Let Me by Pleasure P
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u spend my head right round right round when u go down when u go down down...
you know i hate you right now dont you shots. this is why youre cheesy and then u went and quoted flo-rida when u know i hate him and that song. damn you.
Take swimming lessons. :)
You don't need religion to believe in God. It's okay to not know. Perhaps you might get bored in Heaven, but I suppose that's what reincarnation is for. :P
*Throws a life jacket*
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