02 January 2009

celibacy

Just wanted to tell everyone that I'm still celibate. Yay me, I really didn't think I could do it, but so far I'm doing great. I've found that whenever I get my "urges" its better to channel that energy into something productive and it seems to work.

I've started working with photoshop a lot more, and may even post some of the things I've made. I finally finished my short story that I started writing two years ago. Its only a little over 800 words, but I've been writing it for the last two years and finally got it to a point where I was satisfied with it that I even submitted it to a literary journal at my school. So we'll have to wait and see if its gets published. It would mean a lot for me to be able to call myself a published author. Published journalist just isn't what my high school teacher made it out to be, but atleast she pushed me in this direction.

I've also been hard at work on my movie script and I'm currently working on a documentary thats been 16 years in the making. I gave myself til the summer of 2010 for it to be completed, but the movie is on a tighter schedule. I want atleast a rough draft of it completed before Spring Break. I finally nailed down the plot, all the characters, an how it ends. I just haven't decided whether I want the main character to die or not. I'm not one to advocate suicide for the simple fact its too close to my heart, but I'm all for a shocking ending. I've basically laid down the foundations so far in the movie and now all the shit is about to hit the fan so that should be fun o write.

But the main reason for my celibacy pact is I'm ready for some type of relationship and I wouldn't mind if it was with Redcoat. But the way its looking thats not going to happen. Its been about a week and a half since we've actually had a conversation and even longer since we've seen each other. Yet I keep finding myself thinking about our last day together. So this is just adding to my anxiety about going back to school in a couple of days.

But I'm sure all the pieces will fall into place. My life usually doesn't fall apart in the first few days of the year. That is usually saved for February when my birthday hits and then the drama comes, my life blows up in my face, and I have to deal with the fact that I am usually on the verge of death.


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