19 January 2009

fear #2

One of the craziest things I fear is sleep. I love sleeping. I wish I did it more, but I find it hard to do it. I always feel if I'm sleeping that I'm going to miss something important. Questions start floating in my head wondering what sleep actually looks and feels like. Where does all the time go? What will I be dreaming of? Why don't I remember any of it?

But my biggest issue with is sleep, is the fact that I never know if I'll wake up the next morning. I start to fall asleep and sometimes my mind just rushes to what will happen to me when I finally die. When its finally over and everything I've ever done is out in the open. What will happen to me then.

And when I think of that I usually sit up, and turn on the tv.

2 comments:

Darien said...

We all die. If we identify the cause for the fear we have for something as natural as death, we'll see that we never really fear death at all. What we are afraid of is being forgotten.

J said...

im okay with being forgotten, i think my fear of deaths comes from the fact that im not really sure if i believe in heaven and hell, persay. And if I die, what happens then. Do I really wanna live forever in heaven or in hell.